year end me-me

year-ender me-me (thanks kitty!)

1. What did you do in 2005 that you'd never done before?
* chronicle my wanderlusting (as in, kina-reer!)
* visit the states (and not just one, mind u!)
* travel alone
* spend time with my grandma
* get published in LA!
* get to know and spend time with an ex and his family


2. Did you keep your New Years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I have a list for 2006…. And hell yeah, I’m keeping it!

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
yep. An aunt and some close friends (congrats, tuwa and pao!)

4. Did anyone close to you die?
Acquaintances and a few good people. Rest in Peace….

5. What countries did you visit?
The US. (see previous posts where I was)

6. What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005?
a high paying job and more travelling! :-)

7. What dates from 2005 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
The months of October and November. That’s when I traveled and got to visit the East Coast, saw friends, met up with old loves and yes, had a FABULOUS time amidst tears, disappointments, and lotsa moolah spending.


8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Learning and still learning. Loving.

9. What was your biggest failure?
Not getting enough sleep.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Severe depression. Thank goodness for friends, writing and the postal service!

11. What was the best thing you bought?
A ticket to New York.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
Lotsa people! Kudos to the crew of the West Coast --- River, Gel, Ghenier, Jeff, Harold, Don, Abie, BJ, Dave, Josol, Jason, the Funside gang, my cuzins Justin, Bobby, Jackie, Rico for showing me a grand time…. and the East Coast peeps --- Melissa and her sis Lani, Mitzi, Dave, Osbourne, Hazel, Cha, Tomoko, Lucy, Geraldo, Alvin and sweet Babar :-) (to those whose names I forgot, thank you too…)

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
*pass*

14. Where did most of your money go?
Kape.inom.lakwatsa.banko.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Visiting New York.

16. What song will always remind you of 2005?
- The Way You Look Tonight (classic Ella Fitzgerald version!)
- Mr. Brightside – The Killers
- Chewing Gum – Annie’s Anniemal
- Hung Up –Madonna’s Confessions on the Dance Floor
- Akin Ka Na Lang - Itchyworms’ Noon Time Show
(this is the best album na OPM so far)

17. Compared to this time last year, you are:
cynical.

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
I wish I had more time to travel. I also wish I took more care of my heart.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Worrying.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
Spent it with my family. All by ourselves (my dad was sick eh) it was a good Christmas tho

22. Did you fall in love in 2005?
I wish!

23. How many one-night stands?
*pass*

24. What was your favorite TV program?
Family Guy, Scrubs, House, Sex and The City reruns, Whose Line is It Anyway?

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Sadly…but hate is such a strong word….

26. What was the best book you read?
How to be Good by Nick Hornby

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
The Killers and Brit Rock… Annie…. Hip Underground bars in New York’s East Village

28. What did you want and get?
I wanted to travel and I was able to travel.
I wanted to see my ex and I did.
I wanted to know the meaning of life. I still don’t know it.
Two out of three isn’t bad. 

29. What did you want and not get?
How to course through my life without getting hurt.

30. What was your favorite film of this year?
RENT the Movie.

31. What did you do on your birthday. And how old were you?
painted pots with my cousin and aunt. Talked to my ex’s grandma. Went out with my cousin in Hollywood and Highlands for a night of fun. EARLY breakfast at an all-night diner later on. Great way to spend my 25th year!

32.What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
loads and loads of moolah to spend. More time in New York.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005?
Style meets substance.

34. What kept you sane?
Writing….letters, postcards,emails. Etc. Phone calls to friends, designing. Coffee and yosi. Good conversations and lotsa ranting. Great friends.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Steven Strait (he looks like the guy I’m crushing on)

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
Political instability in the Philippines.

37. Who did you miss?
my family. Kittykat, Mary, Jac, the peeps from college. Some more people.

38. Who was the best new person you met?
Can’t really say. This year was about re-connections.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005:
”In a mad world, only the mad are sane” – Akira Kurosawa
Tama si Kits ---“Sex isn’t life. But life’s impossible without it.”

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
”alone again, naturally.“ 

funkygirl and groovychick

funkygirl and groovychick
Originally uploaded by bunnie_lette.

Reunited!??!!! pic taken last time we were drunk (hahaha) --- specifically, a few weeks ago.

To a friendship that will outlast petty sh*t, catfights (meeow!), guyz and boy problems, and other distractions in life! Long live kitty+bunnie forever :-)

salamat sa iyong pag-intindi at sa iyong pagiging tunay na kaibigan. :-)

sweet misery

You wake up to the heat. For the past few hours, the heat is just exhausting. You wonder if this is another sign of the apocalypse.

You want to douse yourself with cold water real bad.

You drown yourself in music yet the OPMs you play only reminds you of your loss. The sweet sentimentality just adds to the melancholy you can't overcome. What did they say about losing the one you love?

Time travel seems farfetched, but you wish it so dearly right now.

*blink*

Walking through the mall --- Cellphones are everywhere yet there's no one to call. The place looks busy but you know nobody's buying. Why then is there a rush?

You look around to try to recognize a familiar face, yet sadly there is none. How bizaare it is to call this place home but you know no one. You are the outsider. You see things from an observer's view, and you can do nothing but sigh.

Dinner with a good friend. He provides the familiarity you seek (aside from family of course) and you welcome the settling calm. The conversation is a bit clumsy, but you don't feel any unease. The company you seek is here. How you wish everything is as simple as his progression in life. Then again, nothing is simple.

Hush, your mind reprimands. Of course it is. All you need is direction. Somebody give me a clue.

The night beckons you to be imaginative. You try and try but you end up short. What is it about provincial air that makes you think twice about things?

Unless you get out, you will become a statistic. Welcome to the land of stereotypes, where creativity is nil and your imagination runs dry.

10 things

10 things that bring me joy (tagged by kittykat)

[01] great friendships
[02] good coffee and conversations
[03] special times with loved ones
[04] love letters, postcards, mushy souvenirs
[05] family moments
[06] travels, road trips and (mis)adventures
[07] time alone with a really good book
[08] music trippin’
[09] great loves
[10] the future


ytagged!

cheers, tears and a lotta breakage

Happy christmas to the peeps.

A lot of love, a few tears shed, and yes, some wistfulness has made my christmas --- it's always good to know that amidst all the melodrama you can be assured of the love that comes from true friendship.

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sometimes surprises come in small packages. In this case, really sweet messages coming from nowhere. Thank you!

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New year is so close... i wonder if i'll have enough time to start my plans...

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To everybody whose numbers i don't have (and whose messages i haven't had the chance to return) Merry christmas to you and your family!

And this is where it all begins...

and this is where it all begins...
Originally uploaded by bunnie_lette.

In celebration of friendships and the new year, i look back to some of the cool ones i've managed to keep all these years despite time, weird scenarios, petty fights and all that jazz. Cheers to the trio that made it through all this... in good times and bad, in drinking and binging, in great loves and terrible heartaches, we are still here sonic and kittee... :-)

cleaning the closet

I found your postcard today.

Your words are written so beautifully, and even as I read it I was close to tears. You always had that effect on me. I wonder if you still have this in you.

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Last hurrahs earlier this a.m. Bibingcrepes, some chilling at St. Loius, last-minute rundowns and hellos at Big Sky. The conversation was great, and the mood was light. Despite my lack of sleep I mingled. Connections, small world! I feel like the world is conspiring and trying to tell me something… haunts from the past? I hear new names, find new secrets. It’s interesting how things connect…

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I saw your pic and I smile. I wonder how you would feel if I sent it to you. Would you miss me like I miss you?

catching up

The past is literally haunting me.

Everywhere i go i see pieces of you. Every nook and cranny, every haunt we went to, every person we connected with. It's harder to deal with your ghost that way.

I realize every so often why i left.

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Drinks with gal pals makes the singleton life a lot more bearable. Free flowing beer, lovely cocktails. The room starts to spin slowly. I love this heady feeling. It keeps the thoughts at bay.

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The new year beckons. I'll start living again by then. Happy holidays y'all.

christmas week

Tis the season for rushed shopping, heavy traffic (isn't that always the case?) and yes, the commercialism that has become the holiday spirit.

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The other day:

Spent the day chilling at Makati, reconnecting with old contacts. Had a bitchfest with cohort Mary amidst the Landmark goods --- apparently, SM isn't the one who has it all --- Landmark has some surprisingly good (and BAD) goods that's just worth poring over.

Dinner with Nons at his apartment for some tuna and tomato linguine. Yummy! Had fun learning the rudiments of poker (look out world! Haha!) Chilled at Fiamma later on, mingling with the beautiful people of Manila. Twas crowded, brightly lit and yes, heady. I wonder how people do this thing every week.

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Yesterday:

Not all plans really go through. Last minute changes resulted to some pretty interesting scenarios, like walking the streets of Makati, downing about 3-4 coffees, hailing a cab in vain for two hours, listening to a crappy band, eating at mini stop in the early a.m. (and bumping into old acquaintances) and chilling at Big Sky till the sun came up. And i thought my night was gonna ba wasted. Made new friends though. Looking forward to the xmas party...

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Today:

The endless wait continues. What supposed to be was lunch is now turning out to be an early dinner. I am tired of waiting. Also, my flight got bumped off and now i'm stranded in the metro till xmas day. Argh. This is turning out to be some christmas week. Luckily i will be adopted on christmas eve by good friend Jackie and her family (yey!) At least there's still something good about this holiday...

heat wave

I never really got around to walking around the metro, and today i realize there is a reason why i don't. It is soooo BLOODY HOT.

Still, the nuances of not being able to get a cab is why i had to walk 3 blocks to the MRT. Haay. It's really annoying the hell out of me why there are not decent pavements along the roads to encourage people to walk (Makati is excluded of course, though i wish they had more of that). The ride to Makati is less than pleasant, with people from all walks of life coming in and out of the train, bringing with them the smells and odors that when combined is the wors thing your nose can ever sniff.

Note: I have had my share of bizaare rides, and i do not want to come off as a snotty botch, but hell, it was REALLY SMELLY earlier, and the fact that people are too damn close to each other just irritates the hell out of me.

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I'm not much of a Makati fan, but i do appreciate their long shaded walkways and very efficient a/cs. Plus, they have a lot of bookstores which i can lose myself in and not worry about where to "park".

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I am lost in the scheming of moolah-making. Argh. I really wish i can do something productive and can give me some decent spending money. Lord, you know what i want!
:-P

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On a lighter note, kudos to Jac and Zap for the wonderful day yesterday! I truly enjoyed myself, despite the setback of not getting any sleep prior to them picking me up for Tagaytay. I love the long drive, the fab brunch at Antonio's (wonderful place, Jac, we really must go there again!), the wonderful (and very sweet, very touching) gift and of course, the endless picture-taking. :-) Will post them pics up soon, not to worry!

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saturday

sonic's bday
Originally uploaded by bunnie_lette.

happy birthday sonic! / poker night and sushi galore / the gang's all here!!! / reminiscing college days... / inuman na! / it's great to be back / tv marathons, drinking spree, foodies / it's all in the chips! / "so, how's work?" / "never again!" / cheers to friends / "kulang na lang si Peanut, si Mona at si Mike!" / it's one for the logbook / older, wiser? / "ang tanda na natin!" / happy holidays....

looking up?

Wow -- the moment you decide to just let things happen instead of trying to guide them, they really start happening. Putting your strong sense of drive into neutral takes a lot of self-control, but right now it's the best thing to do. Try getting in touch with the cosmic flow -- the moods of those around you as well as your own feelings and intuition -- without being attached to the outcome. Quite soon, some magic begins to occur.

Talk about getting what you wish for. Lord,I asked to see him, the other him, not a scary physical manifestation of my morbid past!!! Next time i should be more specific...

I guess wishing does work, but you just gotta be more detailed.

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I have been aimlessly walking around Katipunan in hopes to find some sort of inspiration. So far, none comes to mind. I am just procrastinating going home and sleeping. *sigh* Where has my life gone?

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I think i need a nap. Or some pills to keep me happy. Or both.

check lists

My friend Jac once mentioned her to-do list to me, that is, things she needs to do before she turns 26, which mentions not only practical ideas (cooking, etc.) but the more interesting tasks too (kissing a stranger in a strange land).

Makes me wonder, just what other thigs do i want to do before i turn a year older? hmmm.... In the spirit of check lists, i've decided to make a mental notes of things i still have to do which i want to accomplish for the next year, ranging from the practical to the bizaare:

- lose weight for the feb trip
- fix my portfolio (again)
- have an out of country trip (asia)
- kiss a stranger in a strange land
- get a fabulous (if not better) job
- start a trust fund
- sponsor a kid / join an NGO
- find a new "look"
- date an "opposite"
- go back to the east coast! :-P
- get myself published in the US
- get a MAC powerbook!!!

Ah well, the countdown to the next year begins. Wonder how this will turn out...

the hump day

nope, it's not what you think (though, at times, i wish it were :-p)

Today is hump day, a wednesday (wrong time zone, hence the thursday dated entry) and well, midweek always gives me a mix of excited panic and hope, for some reason. It's the time when you "finalize" weekend plans, start smiling because in a few days' time it will be a weekend again, and yes, take it easy from work or play. or both.

For me, however, hump day gave me a chance to go about the old neighborhood and reminisce (oh dear). I walked around the streets where we used to walk, check out the places (grocery store, internet shop, 711) we used to hang out and drink my cup of joe from where we usually ended up each night. *sigh*

Incidentally, he was the one who oriented me into this whole "hump day" scenario.

Still, it was no sad day. More like a "what did i do wrong this time?" and "how do i get out of this and move to the next not-so-distant-future?" kind of thinking, a first in a while for me... i came up with no answers, yes, but that is merely temporary. For now i'm content to know that i've past the rut stage.

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Walked a couple more kilometers before deciding to raid the grocery for some much needed food finds and head home for some R&R. Nothing cheers you up better than crawling into a nice sofa and watch reruns of Sex & the City while munching on some comfort food.

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I wonder often if life can ever be like that of Carrie and her friends. Seeing NY just makes me want to go there and be lost in the city. I try doing it here but everything is just so familiar it's so hard to get lost.

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I try not to get too cynical though. Living vicariously through another's burgeoning relationship and another's interesting moments, like tonight's cab ride, keeps me in check that life still has a few surprises in store and i should look out for that. :-P

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strange encounters

i woke up last night to the soft tapping of feet. i didn't think much of it until i sa wthat it was a RAT.

WTF!?!!!

of course, after that, sleeping was the last thing on my mind.

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Now i'm up after a few hours of troubled sleeping, and trying to make sense of my day. My wanderlust calls me, but my wallet holds me back. oh, the torture.

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I want to hear from him today. God, it that possible? :-P maybe i can chalk it up to another strange encounter.

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back in the loop

Makati is bustling and the hustle begins.

I am trapped in my internet bubble, too busy in my attempt to re-connect with everybody. IM doesn't exactly qualify as such.

Had loads of fun hanging with Kitty and Vince during their brainstorming session earlier. Made me realize work can be fun, and now i miss it. It doesn't help that working results to money to blow and spend, whcih i dearly miss at this point.

Had a mini-meeting with my old boss, who in turn gave me a beacon of light to my demise of living in the province. Unfortunately, i would have to put my US trip on hold if i should do so... Then again, i'll be working....here... hehehhe....

I think God has a plan for me. I just wish he'd let me in on it. :-P

coffee, cake and conversation

pao_N_lette
Originally uploaded by bunnie_lette.

Met up with Jolography author and dear friend Pao for coffee and cake at UP's Chocolate Kiss. It's so good to catch up and see what's been happening for the last 6 months... and yes, i missed the kahlua butter cake! yummmy....

Thinking Outside the Box Office

(reposted article By Xeni Jardin)

Director Steven Soderbergh talks about the copyright cops, the remixing underground, and why he'll debut his new movie on DVD, cable, and in theaters all at once.

When Steven Soderbergh releases his next film on January 27, it will have not only the critics squawking, but Hollywood studio execs, too. Bubble, an all-digital thriller, is set in an Ohio doll factory, and all of the actors are completely unknown. But that's not even the interesting part. The movie goes out to theaters, DVD, and high-definition cable TV - all on the same day. It's an experiment that threatens to uproot the film industry's long-standing "release window" formula, which staggers a picture's release on various platforms to maximize profits. Wired caught up with Soderbergh, director of sex, lies, and videotape, Traffic, and Ocean's Eleven, while he was in Los Angeles shooting The Good German, with George Clooney and Cate Blanchett.



WIRED: Why did you decide to release Bubble in all formats at once?

SODERBERGH: Name any big-title movie that's come out in the last four years. It has been available in all formats on the day of release. It's called piracy. Peter Jackson's Lord of the Rings, Ocean's Eleven, and Ocean's Twelve - I saw them on Canal Street on opening day. Simultaneous release is already here. We're just trying to gain control over it.

WIRED: So this is a way to combat piracy?

SODERBERGH: It can be. Warner Bros. has talked about going out with low-cost DVDs simultaneously in China because piracy is so huge there. It will be a while before bigger movies go out in all formats; in five years, everything will.

WIRED: Will people keep going to theaters?

SODERBERGH: Always. You're going to see attendance plateau a bit, but it's still the number one date destination. That's never going away.
WIRED: Have you been to the movies recently?

SODERBERGH: I tried to go to a theater yesterday, but the fire alarm went off. The theater experience isn't always pleasant. Theater owners need to address that. There are often problems with projection; tickets and concessions are expensive; theaters aren't always clean; people talk during the movie. They're making it easy for people to stay home.

WIRED: What's the reaction in Hollywood to your release experiment?

SODERBERGH: People are waiting to see what happens. A movie that costs only $1.6 million doesn't have to be a cultural event to turn a profit.

WIRED: What's the biggest impact technology is having on filmmaking?

SODERBERGH: When the changeover from film to digital happens in theaters in five or 10 years, you're going to see name filmmakers self-distributing. Another thing that really excites me: I'd like to do multiple versions of the same film. I often do very radical cuts of my own films just to experiment, shake things up, and see if anything comes of it. I think it would be really interesting to have a movie out in release and then, just a few weeks later say, "Here's version 2.0, recut, rescored." The other version is still out there - people can see either or both. For instance, right now I know I could do two very different versions of The Good German.

WIRED: Have you ever used BitTorrent or other software to download movies?

SODERBERGH: No. I know about it, but I haven't even downloaded music. I'm behind the curve.

WIRED: Should hardware manufacturers be obligated to build copy protection into their devices?

SODERBERGH: It's a tricky question. I don't think somebody who creates something should have their rights violated. Yet we have a culture in which creating something like [Danger Mouse's] The Grey Album can get you thrown in jail. That's sad. It's an astonishing, amazing piece of work that should be heard.

WIRED: Have you thought about making a mash-up?

SODERBERGH: I have ideas like that - video mash-ups. Some of them I've done privately. But there's no way for them to be seen legally. I wish we could come up with a system that allowed someone to do a Grey Album without having to pay millions of dollars for music rights. A system in which rights holders share profits of a new piece of work and people can access it without breaking the law.

WIRED: Give me one idea for a video mash-up.

SODERBERGH: I was channel surfing the other night and Gus Van Sant's Psycho was on. It would be fascinating to do a mash-up of Gus' version with Hitchcock's version, because the whole thing with Gus' version was that he duplicated the original shot by shot.

WIRED: I'd watch that!

SODERBERGH: Yeah! So right now, I could do that at home and give it to a friend, just as something for them to watch on a Friday night. But we don't live in a world where that can be made commercially available. So it goes underground. And underground is just a sexier word for illegal. It's frustrating.

WIRED: You shot Bubble with the same kind of high-end digital cinema cameras that George Lucas used for Revenge of the Sith, but the results couldn't be more different. Instead of flashy effects, there's a stripped-down naturalism.

SODERBERGH: We wanted to do site-specific films. You hear that term used for other art forms, but not for cinema. The writer and I come up with a basic premise, go to a location, and the people fill it up. We interview people, incorporate their stories, try to make it as organic as possible. The cameras make that possible. You can shoot using available light. I sometimes ran two or three cameras at a time. In Full Frontal and K Street, I learned to take advantage of the mobility that digital provides. With Bubble, I wanted to go in the opposite direction and emphasize stillness. Because there isn't film running through the camera, you get an even more pronounced stillness. That's why you don't see much camera movement in the movie, just a lot of cuts.

WIRED: With all this technology available, do you think the quality of movies is better today than 30 years ago?

SODERBERGH: I think it will be better. As technology gives filmmakers more freedom, you'll see them producing work that is more unique, less beholden to the mainstream film template. That means rethinking the economics. But I'm always willing to gamble.

WIRED: How are you gambling with Bubble?

SODERBERGH: There are risks, and then there are risks. I'm not working in a coal mine. Still, everybody involved did it for scale pay, and everyone owns a piece of the profits.

WIRED: Sounds like the financial model for a startup.

SODERBERGH: Exactly. I'd be thrilled if the model works well enough for me to do that all the time.

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weekend sked

What supposedly was a lazy sunday turned out to be quite an interesting series of events...

An early (REAL early, like 4AM!!)text from Haydz prompted my day to start at 7am --- fixing up the room, uploading pics from the previous load and getting all ready for the lunch date. Met Haydz at Gateway for some catch-up time and lunch at Italianni's, after which we head over to Starbux Katips to meet up with Kittee, Mary and Lizzie for more chitchat, coffee and ziggies.

Got round 2 of coffee with Clang later on, while ruminating the complexities of so-called labels in relationships and finally walked off the coffee and foodies by walking from Katipunan to UP (thank God for flat shoes!). A quick tour through the alma mater, some mais con hielo along the way, and it's off to a quick dinner and some drinks at Big Sky MInd, where we got to discussing sex, music and everything in between (then again, hanging at the bar for that long always seems to lead to those topics) with the regulars until late.

It's great to be back.

rain, men and all that jazz

It has been an eventful three days since i got back. Not only do i get to see friends and family, i get to re-acquaint myself with the hustle and bustle fo the metro.

Ahh, Manila. the Hotdogs song constantly loops in my brain for some reason.

Highlights of the week? Elvis amidst the rain, Ziggies in the dark, Chocolate Kiss reunions, chillin' at Sonic's, Starbux Katips, Kitaro yummies, haircut!

Now if only the rain will let up, then maybe we can really chill....

the countdown begins...

... for the new year, that is... the possibility of switching into a new career, a new look, a new way of life is evident and with all these endless opportunities coming my way, i knew i had to do something to start it off.

So i cut my hair.

Yup, gone are the locks (well, most of it) :-P tee-hee. One must understand that i seldom do so, and having done this only once every 4-5 years makes this occasion pretty special. No gasping or major feedback yet, but then again, i really haven't gone out with the new 'do. Somehow it felt invigorating to do so, a bit risque and yes, weird. I guess this just sums up the "It's begun" status of my so-called new life.

People have been dishing out new ideas from all over the place of what i should do now that i'm back. Included in the list are some of the most interesting (if not insane) ideas:

- take up Nursing (argh!) or Law (*sigh*)
- get hitched (to whom!?!!! LOL!!!!) and settle down (yeah, right....)
- move back home (yikes!)
- take my MA (hmmm...possibility!)

Oh well. I'm procrastinating as of this time by seeing my possibilities and killing time in the metro. Hopefully i can revive my career as a freelancer or join the wonderful world of publication again (i truly hope so...) and maybe get my MA... as for the former ideas, well, that's just plain silly at this point. Still, who knows, right?

I just hope that i can visit the East coast again soon... with a more permanent status :-))

Guilty Pleasure

Ooh-lala. Wish I was Kelly Preston right now.

and Nietzche sums it up...

"one must still have chaos in oneself to be able to give birth to a dancing star"-nietzsche

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It's good to be back.

de ja vu

Is this the sign of the apocalypse or what?

I am ---you guessed it --- stuck in Incheon airport. Again. Just what is it with me and delayed flights?!??!!

I was supposed to be scheduled to arrive in Manila by this time, but due to some amazing circumstances, i not only get my flight cancelled, but i actually stay an extra night in LA (hotel accommodations via the airline) and deal with all the BS most people get from airline people who don't really know what to say, not to mention miss my connecting flight.

Argh.

Ok, looking on the bright side of things...

-I did meet some nice people duringthis weird ordeal.

-I did get to spend an extra night in LA, though it was just me and the tv. (at least they booked me in a nice hotel with a great bar and a very patient bartender)

-I never got to se more of Korea, but hey, it's snowing outside and i have no warm clothes :-P

-I was able to fly back to the East :-))

NOw, if only i can be assured that someone will be picking me up at the airport....

*sigh* I never knew going home can be this complicated.

the aftermath

Ugh.

I've just had the most intoxicating night of my life since i got here, and it's not pretty.

Somebody gimme some aspirin, i feel an immense headache coming my way.

can't get enough of....

music video code by urbnmix.net
rent - seasons (live)

Me Me with 20 questions

Here's a Me Me with 20 questions. Stolen from Vince (salamatski!)

1 If you were to commission a musician to make the soundtrack of your life, who would it be? James Blunt, at this point in time. Or maybe The Shins.


2 What would make you lose sleep?
luvin' (booty call or otherwise)

3 What is the most original breakup line you've ever heard?
"I'm not in love with you anymore" (oh di ba? Harsh, but straight to the point!)

4 What could you have been in your past life?
A cab driver.For some reason i'm good with directions and remember the tiny useless details...

5 If you can travel anywhere in the world, which country will be your first stop?
It's a toss-up --- NY or London

6 If you could belong to any TV Family which family would you choose to belong to?
Family Guy!!! :-)

7 What song reminds you of your last relationship?
You're Beautiful (James Blunt)

8 If the door to your room had a sign on top of it (to at least give the people who are about to enter a warning), what would it say?
Come as you Are

9 You're a cake. What kind are you?
a fluffy, decadent chocolate cake (dark chocolate please!)

10 Fill in the blanks. If I wasn't so _______, I would have been _______ by now.
Broke. An immigrant in NY making a damn good living!

11 What is the deepest, most desperate desire of your heart?
*secret*

12 What is your favorite household appliance?
the ref

13 If you suddenly find yourself onstage in front of thousands of people, what song would you sing?
It's too Late ng Workshy (for some reason, that's the only song i know the lyrics to)

14 What made you smile today?
talking to Margaret :-)

15 What did you eat that gave you food poisoning?
hmmm... too long ago to remember

16 What weird food concoctions do you enjoy?
green mango and soy sauce with salt (hahahaha)

17 If you were an animal, what animal would you be?
a pussycat.

18 Of all of the Halloween costumes you have ever worn, which one was your favorite?
i was the devil

19 What do you do to stay awake during long, boring classes/meetings?
doodle.

20 If there were no tomorrow, what would you do today?
Fly off to where my love is and make mad passionate love!!!

RENT-ed out

So i watched the movie tonight. Boy, i'll be getting this RENT soundtrack LSS for a while... :-) The movie was pretty good, considering they retained most of the original cast (except two), plus the movement was more transitional (i think anyway) because visually they really worked it --- but i guess there is something magical about watching it onstage (i saw the Manila production of RENT). Wish they still ran it on Broadway when i was in NY (that would have been grand...) Anyhoo, i still love it! :-)

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Will I lose my dignity
will someone care
will i wake tomorrow
from this nightmare

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I think they meant it
When they said you can't buy love
Now I know you can rent it
A new lease you are, my love,
On life - all my life
I've longed to discover
Something as true as this is


So with a thousand sweet kisses If you're cold
I'll cover you And you're lonely With a thousand sweet kisses
I'll cover you You've got one nickel only
With a thousand sweet kisses I'll cover you

When you're worn out and tired With a thousand sweet kisses
I'll cover you When your heart has expired Oh lover i'll cover you...

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The heart may freeze or it can burn
The pain will ease if I can learn
There is no future
There is no past
I live this moment as my last
There's only us
There's only this
Forget regret
Or life is yours to miss
No other road
No other way
No day but today

lovin' the red room

yeah, boi!!!!
Originally uploaded by bunnie_lette.

On my last day in DC, stayed over at my friend Cha's place, and had dinner with her, Lucy and Melissa (kinda like agoing away thang). I am soo in love with her place (it's the kind of place i wanna get eventually when i am rich and stable, hahaha)....

faded?

into the red....
Originally uploaded by bunnie_lette.

just got them pics from the darkelephant...i can't believe i look so faded! LOL!!!

Still, the NY scene is just so hoppin' that i'm aching for more...

next year! I heart NY!!!

(culture) shock

I'll be posting my new pics in a few days (it's so hard to upload pics when you're on the move) --- that, and i'm enjoying just chilling right now.

Had my last day as a tourist in DC earlier, checking out the Capitol, absorbing the lovely arworks in the National Gallery of Art and well, exploring the Botanical Gardens. Had a lovely time riding the Metro, getting "lost" along downtown and having some downtown time with Cha for dinner. Thanks for the great time and fabulous accommodations, girl! Anytime you're in Pinas, lemme know! :-D


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In less than a week, i'll be shifting from cold weather to really hot weather, trading my greens for pesos and well, shifting back to another form of reality altogether. It's weird, all this change.

People think just because i seem to move around so much, i'd be used to it, but i'm not.


Oh well.

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the hi-lo

Waking up to Washington DC sunshine is quite disconcerting. There's a rush of sadness that greeted when me i woke up again.

Last night's abrupt phone call made me second guess myself again. I don't know what to say, really. What do you say to someone you care about after all the drama? As much as i want to say everything, i feel it's useless to even think about it at this point. It's up to you, dammit. Stop pretending like everything's ok when you clearly know it's not. Not anymore anyway.

I want to be able to love without restrictions, without any red tape, nobody telling me it's not time, or we can't at this point because i'm busy. I want to be able to love without having to second guess myself. Loving shouldn't be hard. I'm giving something to you, don't make a big deal out of it. GOD. It's love, dammit, not brain surgery.


Oh well... so much for a good morning :-P

Time to hit the museums.

sunday mornings

Well spent into the wee hours of the early days
we'll discover the secrets behind the smiles
and unlock the mysteries of late
delighfully succumbing to the momentary bliss of exploration
one thinks it is fleeting
but in the brief moment that holds you in
you revel in the sweet intimacy

the end stretch

So i'll be heading back to sunny Cali in a few days and i gotta admit, this whole East Coast trip has given me so much insight on so many things, my mind is blown away by the endless possibilities that has been set in front of me.

Much Kudos to the friends and family who have selflessly shared their time and space with me during my visits! :-)

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Baltimore practically rocks when you got good company, lotsa drinks and a lotta dancing :-P Had my own mini-gals' night with old roomie Lucia at the various hotspots of the Harbor --- made me wish i had longer time in Baltimore/DC :-P The night was filled with sweet company, great music and a whole lotsa "interesting" sightings ;-) Where's my camera when i need it!??!!!

>>> Past pics of the grand place click here

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good music, good food! /jazz at Fells Point / lovin' the single's life! --- i's so odd to be in the pool again..../ "salsa dancing" /wee hours/ MTV2 / cuddling is always so nice / talking and champagne / Guinness Beer! / sweet... / PE??? / brunch with Crepes and a lotta gal talk / driving! / easy like a sunday morning... / complete turnovers are strangely amazing...

Guilty Pleasure

Don't Forget About Us
Mariah Carey

Intro:
(Don't forget about us)
Don't baby, don’t baby, don't let it go
No baby, no baby, no baby no
Don't baby, don't baby, don't let it go
My baby boy...

(Verse I)
Just let it die
With no goodbyes
Details don't matter
We both paid the price
Tears in my eyes
You know sometimes
It'd be like that baby

(Bridge I)
Now everytime I see you
I pretend I'm fine
When I wanna reach out to you
But I turn and I walk and I let it ride
Baby I must confess
We were bigger than anything
Remember us at our best
And don't forget about

(Chorus)
Late nights, Late nights, playing in the dark and waking up inside my arms
And wakin' up inside my arms
Boy, you'll always be in my heart and
I can see it in your eyes
You still want it
So don't forget about us
I'm just speaking from experience
Nothing can compare to your first true love
So I hope this will remind you
When it's for real, it's forever
So don't forget about us

(Verse II)
Oh they say
That you're in a new relationship
But we both know
Nothing comes close to
What we had, it perseveres
That we both can't forget it
How good we used to get it

(Bridge II)
There's only one me and you
And how we used to shine
No matter what you go through
We are one, that's a fact
That you can't deny
So baby we just can't let
The fire pass us by
Forever we'd both regret
So don't forget about

(Chorus)

(Rap)
And if she's got your head all messed up now
That's the trickery
She'll wanna have like you know how this lovin' used to be
I bet she can't do like me
She'll never be MC

Baby don't you, don't you forget about us

(Chorus x2)

Don't baby, don't baby, don't let it go
No baby, no baby, no baby no
Don't baby, don't baby, don't let it go

When it's for real, it's forever
So don't forget about us.

f*ckit

somebody send me back my wallet. :-(

thankful

It is Thanksgiving after all, so amidts the depression and post-drama, i woudl like to list down the lot i am absolutely thankful for:

- the warm accomodation Mel and her fab family is giving me! Thank you for taking in this misplaced FOB while she is aimlessly around in the East Coast

- the absolute grand time and accommodation i received from NY, CHICAGO, D.C. and BALTIMORE!!! Much kudos to Mitzi, Dave, Osbourne, Hazel, Babar, Cha, Tita Nancy and Jason for taking me in while i explored the city grounds.

- the first time i saw snow (yes, cheesy me!) --- the loveliest of falling flurries came down last night and i stood enchanted and giddy as a kid.

- the weather that permits me to look as wacky and let me get away with it :-P

- the NY/ East Coast experience. It's fun, it's lovely, it's something i wanna do AGAIN!!!

- the opportunity to "find myself" and bum. Literally.

- warm socks, leg warmers and gloves. (beanie also a big plus!)

- reunions, semi-reunions and well, long-awaited talks :-)

- the future (what's next?)

snow

I saw my first snow tonight :-) It was the most beautiful sight i ever did see.

Too bad i wasn't with you to see it.

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You never called back. The snow is settling on the grass, covering the night with its wintry blanket.

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detective work

All i need right now is another problem...

Losing my ticket shouldn't be that problem, but it is. Now i wonder how the HELL i'm goin back to the West Coast. Somebody give me back my wallet!Ack!

biting cold

The frost continues to gnaw on her blistering skin. I seem to have lost any emotion because i can't feel anything right now.
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The ride was long and uneventful. She gazed outside the window, attempting to avert her face from prying eyes. These people must wonder why her tears won't stop. She tells the woman who asks, i miss the warmth.

The woman looks away. She sits back and continues to stare out, tears streaking her face.

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In another city he wonders if he really did the right thing. Her sad goodbye echoes his mind. Someday,he thinks, it will happen.

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She thinks, someday...

godverdomme

I sit here and try to put into words how i feel about you.

Yes, amazingly, i come up with nothing. Or perhaps everything, and i'm just too chicken to put it all in writing.

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Last night you let me hold you close and i slept a dreamless peaceful sleep.

I love you and you don't have to say anything about it.


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It's hard to say something to you without sounding stupid. I am afraid of you and your demeanor. Perhaps because we both changed (though i'm not sure if it's for the better or worse).

the "bean" that ate Chicago

the "blob"
Originally uploaded by bunnie_lette.

Outdoor sculpture entitled "bean" (as in Jelly bean) looms over us like the blob. :-) Pretty shiny for a bean, if you ask me :-P

Chicago is great during the spring,i'm sure. The lovely weather permitted us to dally-about, rendering us defenseless to its charms.

Still, it ain't NY, but who am i to complain? It's the midwest after all, and life is well, different here.

Bound

Perhaps i am just too comfortable in dwelling in what has happened that i feel no need to let go. Perhaps the past binds me and i can't get myself out of it.

Ah fuck.

Today i search through Art Institute of Chicago's numerous halls as if searching for my answer amidst the paintings. Georges Seaurat's masterpiece, Sunday afternoon on the island of Le Grand Jatte, looms over me, giving nothing but its abstract beauty.

I wonder if io would have another episode of "Starry Night".

I feel nothing and everything.

What is it about the big 2-5 that makes you want to analyze everything that has happened, is happening and will be happening in your life? What is it about this magical age that makes you question every decision you have made, doubt every confidence that you have and simply make you fear of the inevitability of life?

Argh.

Don't mind me. This too, shall pass....

smilin despite the cold

smilin despite the cold
Originally uploaded by bunnie_lette.

this is the token pic of me and jason hangin' out (a de ja vu from the washiongtoon pics, dontcha think?)--- and yes, it's freezing, People!

cold

what's worse than a cold bored gal?

a cold bored gal with an itch to scratch.

I don't mean it like THAT (pervs!) --- i mean, i'm bored and i wanna do something about my current situation, but due to the damn cold i can't do anything. Yes, i feel like the FOB islander that i am, freezing my ass off while trying to figure out where the hell can i get some form of heat in this somewhat frigid area of the US.


For now my sanctuary is this quaint cafe nearby the area which houses a warm atmnosphere (yey!) and wireless internet(whoo-hooo!) for the price of 3$ (pay for coffee and muffin,m and you're set). Ahh... nice to be warm inside and out.


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I miss the weather in California. But i still miss NY...

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the coldness

i am cold. literally and figuratively.

Somehow this weird phenom has settled in and i am not really sure how to address it.

Tama ba? Naiisip kominsan baka hormonal changes lang to ( like that uber-emotional response to Van Gogh's Starry Night) or maybe it's just the darn weather. I really haven't been able to adjust to the weather --- i feel like i'm forever stuck in this freezer called Chicago. Somebody heat me up... uh, that didn't sound right. My bad. LOL

Chicago impressions

Nobody told me it was gonna be COLD in Chicago.

It's pretty, pristine and yes, COLD. It snowed last night, which delayed my flight into O'Hare by two hours. Argh. Thank God Jason has his car already...otherwise i'll be trudging down through snow and commuting to Godknowswhere...

So here i am, typing away on Jason's lovely MAC (ooh, i want one too!) while trying to "make most" of my morning. I've been trying to download a MAC version of Photoshop so i can get going with a project (anybody? help??? please!???) while figuring out what to wear (after all, i came here with "light winter clothes" --- doesn't necessarily tranlate to the appropriate ones :-P) before i step out.

Ahhh.

This whole East coast/ midwest trip is somewhat tiring and stressful, i gotta admit. I'm not saying i'm not loving every inch of it, but i do wish that the emotional aspect of this trip can be kept to a minimum. I am going nuts trying to figur emyself out after all these encounters and wondering if i'm losing my mind in the process...

Still, there is hope.

While i try not to reminisce too much of the past, i try to figure out what to do with my "future".

For now i'll just try to figure the warmest yet most stylish clothes i have --- before i freeze to death.

the city that is NY

it's odd to think that NY can change people, but having been here for about a week now, i can honestly say that it can. And it does. The city can literally eat you up alive, if you let it... this is not to dissuade me from thinking that NY is THE place be in -- i am somewhat bereft that i will be missing out on some good partyng and some of the fabulous sights and sounds that comprise this amazingly diverse, fantastic place....the people, the subways, the haunts, theparties like such fun, and i'd hate to be getting out just when the season's just starting.

Oh well. Take the bad with the good, as they say. In this case, i will. :-P

Ahh, ce'st la vie.

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I still love NY.

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serendipity?

Siguro nga, it had to be.

Isipin ko man na hindi pwede, o kaya tanungin ko man sairili ko kung bakit nangyari ang nangyari, mukhang ngayon, hindi mangyayari ang pagkakataon na ito muli. O di ba, ang surreal.... LOL

Masaya nako at nakapagusap muli tayo. Ang tadhana naman o, may pagkapilyo talaga minsan... Ngayon, di ko na inaalala ang kahapon o bukas. Sa ngayon, di ko na muna iisipin ito. Sa mga pagkakataong ito, masaya na muna ako na makapiling ka at makausap ka muli na walang takot, walang sama ng loob, at walang katanungan kundi, san tayo gigimik? :-P

Siguro nga, It just had to be.... you.

hazel and lette!

lette_n_hazel
Originally uploaded by bunnie_lette.

had a fab dinner with Hazel by Times Square last night! :-) It's so great to see her again... yummy food (chinese), great company in one of the greatest cities in the world, what mor ecan a gal ask for? :-)

Best Friends till the End

Best Friends till the End
Originally uploaded by bunnie_lette.

(this is beginning to sound like a BFF series!) Got this in the mail recently from Kittee gurl --- thanks a bunch, hon! mwah! I'm missing you! :-) Awww, and she has our pics up too! :-)

Girlfriends

BFF (Best Friends Forever)
Originally uploaded by bunnie_lette.

in times of happiness
and sorrows and grief
they give you some hope
and a a little bit of relief
you can count each one
to give you some love
be it a smile
some words or a hug
they comfort you with cheer
that's forever abound
or just be plain happy
with a margarita round!
With galpals like these
who needs to frown?
They keep you up and never down
Fabulous friends
despite all the strife
Are friends till the end
and treasures for life

at Edgar Allan Poe's grave

at Edgar Allan Poe's grave
Originally uploaded by bunnie_lette.

AAAhhhh, Baltimore. Land of crabcakes, Sleepless in Seattle and yes, Edgar Allan Poe. :-) Here's to you, o great one

birthday thanks

thank_you_card
Originally uploaded by bunnie_lette.

kudos to the gang for giving a wonderful party! :-D mwah mwah mwah! *hugs*

The bottom Line

Believe it or not, while a friend you've thought of in only the most strictly platonic of ways has done their very best to keep things that way ... well, that natural sexuality that oozes out of your every pore doesn't make it easy to do. They may be gearing up to make that announcement now, but if you aren't ready to hear it, for whatever reason, do what you do best -- that skillful sidestep.


Oooh, this is interesting.... :-)

on a birthday break

breaking off the bliogging for now, gonna enjoy my birthday week. cheerios! :-)

*blows candle, eats cake* yum!

birthday gift

birthday gift
Originally uploaded by bunnie_lette.

Got this lovely scarf in the mail today --- a wonderful present from Grandma Margaret and Grandpa Jim! Home made and very warm and fuzzy, it's just too sweet!!! :-) Thanks for remembering my birthday!!! *kisses and hugs*

lost in transition

ruminating
Originally uploaded by bunnie_lette.

roaming the streets of LA....

freelancing blahs

During my stint as a "freelancer", i realized a sad reality: you're only as good as your networking skills. As much as i hate to admit it, one cannot freely express one's self and make a profit unless one is exposed and (argh) connected to those who have the money and the ability to make things happen. (Oh god, my jaded personality is kicking in!)

Perhaps i still hold on to an idealism that with true talent, you can make it to the top. Expose your work, and as they say, they will come. *sigh* I guess networking prods it a little more... then again, it makes me question everything: how far can you take it and "network" without truly selling out? :-P

the future?

this makes me question if i should go with my plans for an MA in SF or not....

while this makes me think twice about staying in RP.

Hmmm.

a lesson from the gals...

Sex and the City Love Lessons

1) Lesson 1 - You are not easily not forgotten. Let him find you when HE'S READY. The message - Don't make excuses for man's bad behavior.

2) Any guy who dumps you wasn't good enough for you. The message - It's not your fault if a guy doesn't like you.

3) Life is hard enough without sharing it with someone difficult. The message - No matter how much a guy spoils you he still needs to be kind to you and share things with you.

4) You deserve to be with someone who gives you his best and is nice to you all the time. The message - Harry never made Charlotte doubt his love. The man should always try to give you his best and never give you reasons to doubt.

5) When a man says he can't be monogamous, believe him. The message - He's just not that into you if he's cheating on you.

6) There is a guy out there who wants to marry you. The message - A lot of women say, " The guys I like never like me." What about the guy that does like you????

7) No matter how hard your heart is aching over a broken heart you can always count on your friends to be there for you.

8) ALWAYS BE OPEN TO UNEXPECTED POSSIBILITIES.


P.S. Its from this week's current issue of US Weekly! I hope all you ladies get a lesson or two on love. Although realism is good to always have it doesn't hurt to be OPTIMISTIC sometimes =)

it's raining in LA???

Just when i thought things couldn't get any worse...

it rains.

Not only did this make the day colder, gloomier and more,well, depressing, i can't get out. (then again, i have no money to really go around anywa, but that's besides the point...)

Yeuch. (make face)

What's worse about getting stuck at home with nothing to do? Getting stuck at home with nothing to eat. ...sigh. I wanted to make pancakes from scratch to cheer me up, but the milk was old (Eeeow!!!) and stinky. I wnated to make sandwiches, but the bread was gone. Sigh. Settled for yogurt and dried fruit (uh, yummmy... i guess) Now all i can think about is pigging out on some good ol' Papa John's Pizza....

me and jackie

me and jackie2
Originally uploaded by bunnie_lette.

yet another shot of me and my fab "sister" --- this was taken while havin' dinner @ Islands by Seal Beach.

sunday bloody sunday

i realized that yes, the weather is definitely getting cold-ER. I actually am scared of heading to the east coast now that i have had the taste of what 60 degrees felt like... brrr!

i need some warmth....dammit.

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Confound it! my 6flags plan was shattered with the "disappearance" of my cousin. *sigh* Settled for a movie with my other cousin, Ricky instead. The weather was bad anyway---scattered rain, cloudy skies, 20 degrees lower than usual. Well, at least the movie was funny --- Wallace and Gromit was pretty witty and quite entertaining, especially since they intersperesed a lot of adult humor into the details (imagine a stark naked Wallace holding a box to cover himself that read " contains nuts").

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on vacation

vacation
Originally uploaded by bunnie_lette.

got this from postsecret.com --- quite befitting, don'tcha think? :-P

Life is one long self-help book

Consider the possibilities: how many times can one receive a self-help chain e-mail? I got this about three times this week (is this a weekly special or what?) Anyhoo, sarcasm aside, this actually made some sense to my system and so i shall (in lieu of forwarding AGAIN) post this up for all you people to read and ponder on:

1. I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you..
2. No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry.
3. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
4.. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart
5. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them.
6. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.
7. To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.
8. Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you.
9. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.
10. Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened.
11. There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time around
12. Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else and expect them to know you.
13. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to.


REMEMBER: WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS FOR A REASON.

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Ironically, i, along with some friends, have been mulling over the same thoughts and related scenarios for the past few weeks and it's funny how these folks also got this email from someone they know (hahaha, call it divine intervention, perhaps?) Ahhh, life and its surprises! :-P

the good times are killing me... (Modest Mouse)

Lately the emotional rollercoaster that has been coursing through me is steadily slowing down --- why is that, i wonder? These past few days have launched me into a new panic attack, wherein i ask myself, Why the fuck is this all happening!?!!! Then again, that's just me...

Take for example, my saturday: My friends and i were at Melros Avenue checking out Crossroads and the other local "vintage" and secondhand stores around the area. We parked by the store itself and since it was early, decided to splurge on a smoothie (i mean splurge because the prices skyrocket along these areas, like, $5 for a smoothie!!?!!)

Anyhoo, we were hanging out the shop when a couple of cop cars pass by, their sirens whirling like mad. Next thing we know, two bomb squad cars passby. Thinking it was a movie being shot, we didn't take much note of it... until they started closing off an entire block of the street --- specifically, the block where we parked our car.

Yep, complete with flares, yellow ribbons and a dozen or so cops redirecting traffic, we got from the nice guy in blue that an unidentified package was left in the store across Crossroads and was being analyzed by the bomb squad as he spoke. People were in a near-panic mode as they anxiously waited for an explosion.

Now, this would have been really freakish had it not been the fact that this was in Hollywood. I think being in this specific setting made me less freaked out about it because, well, i keep expecting the cameras to appear and somebody to say "cut!" anytime soon. Alas, it was real, as they made us wait for about an hour and a half for them to safely say, "it's not a bomb, people!".

Hmmm. At least my saturday was quite interesting... and yes, i did what any normal tourist would do --- take pictures :-P

The so-called personality test

Your #1 Match: ESFP

The Performer You are a natural performer and happiest when you're entertaining others. A great friend, you are generous, fun-loving and optimistic. You love to laugh - and you like almost all people equally. You accept life as it is, and you do your best to make each day fantastic. You would make a good actor, designer, or counselor.

Your #2 Match: ENFP

The Inspirer You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends. You are also unconventional, irreverant, and unimpressed by authority and rules. Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives. You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're qutie the storyteller! You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist.

Your #3 Match: ESFJ

The Caregiver You are sympathetic and caring, putting friends and family first. A creature of habit, you prefer routines and have trouble with change. You love being in groups - whether you're helping people or working on a project. You are good at listening, laughing, and bringing out the best in people. You would make a great nurse, social worker, or teacher.

Your #4 Match: ISFP

The Artist You are a gifted artist or musician (though your talents may be dormant right now). You enjoy spending your free time in nature, and you are good with animals and children. Simply put, you enjoy bueaty in all its forms and live for the simple pleasures in life. Gentle, sensitive, and compassionate - you are good at recognizing people's unspoken needs. You would make a good veterinarian, pediatrician, or composer.

Your #5 Match: ENFJ

The Giver You strive to maintain harmony in relationships, and usually succeed. Articulate and enthusiastic, you are good at making personal connections. Sometimes you idealize relationships too much - and end up being let down. You find the most energy and comfort in social situations ... where you shine. You would make a good writer, human resources director, or psychologist.

What's Your Personality Type?

peace, y'all!

peace, y'all!
Originally uploaded by bunnie_lette.

Hangin' with Carlo and Kimmy for the weekend! We went to watch CORPSE BRIDE at Universal Cinemas and pretty much hung out at their place in Glendale. Nakakmiss ang Blueridge gang! Wish you were here, jays! :-)

adieu Multiply

So my Multiply account is officially dead.


Alas, with all unexplained things in this world, including the Bermuda Triangle and The Yeti, it's gone... whoever pulled it out, well, that's your thing. Karma will deal with you.

Oh well. All things have their own twisted way of coming back.

So anyway, i've started a replacement blog for travel accounts here

revisiting SATC

Things have been quite "non-interesting" these days that i feel stuck. I don't really know what causes this uneasiness in me, but i was feeling that "funk", that weird inner cringe and i didn't know what to do about it. In need of some "woman talk" and all the positivism only the female sex can provide, I turn to viewing old episodes of SATC.

Sex and the City gave most women felt empowerment with the brazen and frank way Carrie and her girflriends approached the topic of sex, love and relationships. For me, it was the embodiment of what i wanted to feel --- safe and secure in my own sexuality, confident enough to move on without thinking too much about it, or regretting it. I secretly wanted to be a cool mix of Carrie's fashion chic, Samantha's devil-may-care attitude, Charlotte's naive yet romantic soul and Miranda's intellect.

Ahhh, tv. What you cannot have in real life, they put in stereotypes in shows.

Regardless of this, SATC gave me some pretty interesting insight on such subjects, and weird as it may seem, there were things that actually made sense (see previous posts re: SATC).

I wish life can be as easily read like these episodes. More to the point, i wish life will always have a happy ending, like they do (after all, Carrie got Mr. Big, didn't she?)

i got tagged!

WALA LANG: 20 People You Can Think Of Right Off Your Head
*these people aren't listed in any particular order...
so dont feel bad if you're number 20, or if you're not on the list at all*

01. Kitty
02. Mary
03. Jac
04. Jason
05. Melvin
06. Melissa
07. River
08. Jackie
09. Hectril
10. April
11. Abie
12. Justin
13. Haydee
14. Jasonic
15. Ann
16. Hazel
17. Pika
18. Roel
19. Mitzy
20. Ricky

How did you meet ..13?
>> in high school, through classroom assignments

What do you honestly think of 10?
>> my mom is really cool :-)

Have you ever liked 3?
>> Yeah, cos she's a strong woman :-)

Would 11 and 2 make a good couple?
>> nah, they're better off friends :-P

Do you think 12 is hot?
>> hehehe, i'd be biased he's my cuzin!

Who is 8 going out with?
>> her boyfriend

Is 9 a boy or a girl?
>> a boy.

When was the last time you talked to 5?
>> a couple of weeks back :-)

What is 1's favorite band?
>> nirvana --- ganun pa rin ba kits?

Does 2 have any siblings?
>>yeah, she's the youngest of five kids, i think...

Would you ever date 6?
>> yeah, if i was a lesbian... but since i'm not, girls night out na lang!

Would you ever date 7?
>> yup, on girls nights out!

Is 15 single?
>> nope

What is 19s last name?
>> Dorland

What does 17 look like?
>> the hottest momma in da hood!

What is 10's fantasy?
>> i dunno, and it's too weird ot ask my mom that!

Would 14 and 19 ever get together?
>> i dont think so...

What school does 16 go to?
>> UP FA - grad na sya.

What school does 1 go to?
>> UP CFA- grad na sya.

Where does 9 live?
>> at home

Would you make out with 13?
>> LOL --- i dont think so!

Are 5 and 6 best friends?
>> they dont know each other

Is 20 older than you?
>> nope, younger

Is 18 the sexiest person alive?
>> ob cors! :-) naks, roo, yung sweldo ko ha! ;-)

* tagging all them readers!!!

postcard series

postcard_06
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Been bored and pretty much trying to rant out through random artworks... whaddya think?

Ahhh...boredom can do much for a depressed gal...

missing

i find the most unlikely form of comfort from a letter.

Thank you for your kind words of wisdom, and strangely, though i never really said anything specific, you seemed to know what i was hinting at. You make my day a lot better with your hopeful outlook in life...


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I think missing someone is the worst kind of torture one can inflict on one's self.

This feels like a repeat of Sex and the City's "The Exquisite Pain" episode.

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makes you think....

A relationship offers a chance for you to be reborn -- if you want a new identity.

You thought you were done with hearing the confessions of your friends, since you've let them all know that you really can't be surprised at this point. Suddenly, however, someone has called to mention something they're feeling rather guilty about -- and now that you know, you're going to feel guilty about it, too. Your only option is to trust your instinct, which has only let you down when you haven't listened.


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Argh. My hormonal changes are f*cking up my intuition. Somebody help...

f*ckit

I promised myself it wouldn't be about you. I promised myself i'll protect my heart. I promised myself that if anything should happen, it will be because i wanted it to happen.

It took one call for my defenses to break down.

I don't want to explain myself to you anymore. You know how i feel about you. You know how all i want is to spend time with you. I understand the situation. I understand how things changed. Silly me. I forget that love does not conquer everything, it complicates it.

I want to be there for you. I want to be with you.

That's all there is to it for me.

And men say women are complicated... :-P

Hoo-boy....

The Bottom Line
Decisions teach us about ourselves. Remember your priorities, and this'll be easy.

In Detail
You were probably quite irritated with someone who deceived you recently, and remnants of those feelings could be hanging over your heart right now. If it's a friend who's responsible, you can make peace, but not until later tonight, after you've had the chance to do some detective work to prove to yourself that you're right to help. In the meantime, you'll have to endure at least one more conversation with the same person over the same issue before it's over. Oh, you can do it. You're tough.


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Yeah, right. Now all i have to figure out what my priorities really are...

Surreal world

After a not-so-interesting day i got a call from Dave, a fellow kababayan (he hails from the same province) and a nearby resident, who, as his voice hinted, was depressed as a depressed guy could be.

Girl trouble? thank goodness,no! I've had enough in my mind as it is to entertain troubles of the heart... :-P

Anyhoo, we schedule a "kapehan session" (a.k.a coffee and yosi) that night to talk about whatever's been bugging him. Turns out, his client boots him from a project he was so hoping to get for that evening. In the friday buzz of Cerritos' Starbucks, we digressed the WTF's of corporate America, living the American dream (not necessarily living it tho) and all the "what-the-hell-happened-to... " connections we had in the province.

Kewlness, fate hits him bigtime after a few hours or so... the client who ditched him earlier calls him up telling him to head out to the gig to take pics, ASAP. What do we do? He brings me home to change outfits, and we speed through the 710 to catch the gig.

Ahh, fate does have a twisted sense of humor....the 710 gets packed, apparently from road work caution (they blocked two lanes) ---not only that, we were low in gas, and have a possible chance of getting stranded in the freeway should we end up using it all. So the journey takes a detour into downtown LA in search of a gas station...again, where is a gas station when you need it!?!!

We finally find one, in the heart of a nearby suburb --- ahh, the gringos, the festive signs, the dark alleys nearby... the gas was cheap, but the place gave me goosebumps :-P We head up to Glendale where, while listening to The Killers, we missed the turn, leading us to a roundabout into the next exit.

At last we end up at the bar, where Dave pretty much goes around and do his "paparazzi" thing, while i mingle with the fil-ams, nodding to the beat and taking it all in. The scene was pretty happening, though it does give you a nostagic feel of Makati in the weekend (kinda like Mbassy or Il Ponti)..though i could do with all the "baduy" pick-up lines (that's what you get when you're a lone female without a posse of gals) from them kids. Got to hang with some fun, booze-lovin' kids who were living it up and takin pictures of everybody. Kudos to them folks --- Melissa, Angela and Ryan, as well as Sato! :-) They were pretty kewl... The booze was pretty expensive, but hey, it's better to be sober than drunk at these times :-P

The party was pretty happenin', a pretty fun way to spend a friday night... what began as a typical night turned out to be something quite...well, surreal :-)

driving lessons

Hard to believe, but i haven't had a driver's license since...forever. i never really thought much about it growing up. Suffice to say that while most kids growing up would dream of what car they would want to own, i was too busy thinking of other things.

My friends (well, most of them anyay) have their own cars now, and they prefer that to commuting, but really, who would want to drive in Manila? The chaos, the EDSA traffic, the bad officers, the expensive parking, the "guidelines" that are the traffic laws....who would want to?

Fast forward to the present: in LA, it is -- gasp!--- scandalous to not have your own car. Worse, it is almost as serious as having done a crime not to have a driver's license (well, in most circles anyway). Here, people expect you to drive, if not own a vehicle, and as most job requirements, you need to have your own transportation. So here i am, without knowledge or experience whatsoever in that field, readily commuting to brave through big, bad LA. People say i am commiting social suicide.

*sigh* In retrospect, i have to agree that to a certain degree they are right. After all, i am turning a year older soon, and well, i guess there just comes a time that you have to do the inevitable....

So i took the written driving exam yesterday. Big whooo-pee.

i have to admit, going through those lines, writing all the necessary paperwork, and pretty much answering those questions left me unsettled. All this for a measly piece of identification card? Hmmm.... it felt like forever, but finally i was done.

i passed.

Ok, admittedly, it felt good.

Now all i have to do is take one more test and i'm well... conformed to society.

Wish me luck :-P

feeling california

The recovery of my demise from a recent soul-searching experience resulted to nothing. I am, as i ever will be, still stuck in that lousy game of "what the hell do i do with my life?" phase... i think every individual has this moment one time or another in his or her life, perhaps mine just goes in circles. No momentous discovery or brilliant "aha!" moment here, just the strange "hmmm..." still hanging...

This is not to say that i am not enjoying my time here. After all, this IS LA... the land of opportunity and all that. I think the whole quarter life crisis is getting to me (Yes folks, i will be officially a year older come next month). *sigh*

I wonder if Carrie had days like these.

I'm missing having an apartment of my own, working like mad in a stimulating environment (though be it underpaid and overworked) and still have time to ruminate with friend over tea, coffee or cocktails (margaritas, please!) These things seem to be a million lightyears away now...

This is what California does to me.

I wonder how NY would be like....

hahahaha!!!!! this is pretty kewl....

You scored as Lord Voldemort. Evil and power hungry, you strike fear into the hearts of all wizard kind. Lord Voldemort 75% Hermione Granger 75% Sirius Black 70% Ron Weasley 70% Albus Dumbledore 70% Severus Snape 65% Draco Malfoy 65% Harry Potter 65% Ginny Weasley 60% Remus Lupin 55% Your Harry Potter Alter Ego Is...? created with QuizFarm.com

the zen of Calvin and Hobbes

Calvin: What's a pronoun?

Hobbes: It's a noun that lost its amateur status.

sumthing happeee.....

so they say...

Ah, the game of love. Sometimes you roll the dice and you get to pass 'Go' and collect a sweet chunk of change. Other times, it seems like the only rule is there are no rules and it's every person for him or herself. You're in more of a limbo state right now, and not really sure which way to turn. Rather than trying to figure out a course of action at once, why not figure out what you want first, and then act from there?

great. I figured that out and i'm still stuck in limbo. *sigh*

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Happy birthday to my grandmama! Mwah!!!

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oh yeah, belated happy birthdays to Mark L., Onelski and AbieGurl... not to mention Toti, LizzTrinity, Jalski and Don S. :-) Did i miss anyone? ANyhoo, my memory's getting all fried from all this useless worrying... ARGH...

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Somebody get me a drink. or two. I need something to dull the pain.

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death in the family

tv deaths worth mentioning....Leave it to tv writers and directors to come up with some amazing deaths. Scoring through tv for most of my time now, i have come to think of some of my fave casts as family soothing me through my boring nights at home.

hehhe...

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a call can make or break your day

In my case, it totally did make it.... *happy hearts*

just beautiful (thanks Kitty)

someone out there is meant to be the love of your life, your best friend, your soulmate, the one you can tell your dreams to. he'll smile at you when you tell him, but he'll never laugh at your heart. he'll brush the hair out of your eyes and send you flowers when you least expect it. he'll call you to tell you goodnight before you get into bed or just because he is thinking about you. he'll be bursting to talk to you each morning just to hear the sound of your voice. he'll look into your eyes and tell you that you are the most beautiful girl he has ever seen and for the first time in your life ... you'll believe it

:-) this made me smile. Thanks, gurl *hug*

stuck

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destinys child - emotion

peace, y'all!

peace, y'all!
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we're bored... so camwhores that we are, my cousin Justin and I decided to pose for the cam and do what we like to call "the ghetto thang".

hmmm....

hmmm....
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uh, we're running out of poses....

justin teachin me how it's done

justin teachin me how it's done
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ok, ok....

doin' the peace thang

doin' the peace thang
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ok, i'm not doin this right....

uh, yeah!

uh, yeah!
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ode #27

Reach out for that smile
you always have handy
to elevate your mood
still
your eyes betray you
and you do everything to distract them from looking
You look to busy yourself
from thinking too much
and you pick up the clutter of your room
hoping that you can pick up
the clutter in your life
just like that
silence
you yearn and fear it
it is both a friend and an enemy
keeping your thoughts close
yet turning them against you
'there is more to life than this'
like an incessant itch
you find yourself mouthing these words
like a voice that cannot be heard
Smile, you are happy
or so you keep telling yourself
Collapse into the sunset
they never know what you are thinking
anyway...

InDiE Rockurrrr....

You Are an Indie Rocker!

You are in it for the love of the music... And you couldn't care less about being signed by a big label. You're all about loving and supporting music - not commercial success. You may not have the fame and glory, but you have complete control of your career.

What Kind of Rocker Are You?

:-)

urock
Originally uploaded by bunnie_lette.

Don't You (Forget ABout Me)

Hey, hey, hey ,hey
Ohhh...

Won't you come see about me?
I'll be alone, dancing you know it baby


Tell me your troubles and doubts
Giving me everything inside and out and
Love's strange so real in the dark
Think of the tender things that we were working on


Slow change may pull us apart
When the light gets into your heart, baby


Don't You Forget About Me
Don't Don't Don't Don't
Don't You Forget About Me


Will you stand above me?
Look my way, never love me
Rain keeps falling, rain keeps falling
Down, down, down


Will you recognise me?
Call my name or walk on by
Rain keeps falling, rain keeps falling
Down, down, down, down


Hey, hey, hey, hey
Ohhhh.....


Don't you try to pretend
It's my feeling we'll win in the end
I won't harm you or touch your defenses
Vanity and security


Don't you forget about me
I'll be alone, dancing you know it baby
Going to take you apart
I'll put us back together at heart, baby


Don't You Forget About Me
Don't Don't Don't Don't
Don't You Forget About Me


As you walk on by
Will you call my name?
As you walk on by
Will you call my name?
When you walk away


Or will you walk away?
Will you walk on by?
Come on - call my name
Will you all my name?


I say :
La la la...


a tribute to The Breakfast Club and Family Guy

tag by psychicpants

INSTRUCTIONS: List 10 things that bring you a moment of joy.

1. learning something new everyday
2. ice cream on a cold day
3. blueberries and cereal in the morning
4. vitamin Water!
5. Prendz!!
6. having a really good conversation with someone i like
7. tasting new food!
8. gals night with a pitcher of margaritas
9. really good music
10.travelling

INSTRUCTIONS: List 3 things that bug you, things that others may find trivial.

1. people trying to impress everybody else (mayabang!!!)
2. pets dressed as people
3. crappy bathrooms